I’ve been reticent about blogging this, but readership of this blog is small (almost non-existent, if I’m really honest), so it’s likely to provide me the emotional closure I need without creating any big waves in the educational wading pool.
After 25 years in three different positions at International School Bangkok, I’ve resigned, effective June, 2011, to return to Canada, probably to my small hometown in Southern B.C.. I’m not recruiting internationally, and most recently, have moved away from even pursuing a job in the Canadian public school system. Although I faithfully follow Doug Johnson, and I generally agree with his sentiments, the three-ring binders post got me reflecting on how we each handle this inevitable point in our professional lives. I’ve still got a few of those 3-ring binders cluttering my life (including drafts of my still only “self-published” novel), but I’m not waiting around to see if the “work” binders ever get ported over to GoogleDocs. I’m hanging up my Teacher-Librarian spurs and moving on to things which may be more relevant than either that novel – or my work at ISB – will be in the world we face in the coming decades (Greenland’s melting, Northwest Passage is open, uncontrolled methane outgassing is imminent…).
An off-the-cuff comment to a colleague this morning pretty much sums up how I arrived at this decision. I said something like, “I’ve always believed I brought integrity to the position, and if I’m going to retain (or possibly to salvage) that, it’s time I left the profession.”
I gave my employer three reasons for my departure. At the top of my list was discontent with the relegation of ISB’s Main Library Review, Renovation and Renewal project to continual “next-phase” status. My second reason was a compilation of concerns about Thailand’s future economic and social stability combined with growing disquiet over accelerating environmental degradation. But my own personal “tipping point”, was a realization that my parents, now in their ’80′s, and in declining health, deserve a greater sense of security than I can offer from half-way around the world – and more quality time with their first grandson (I was a late-starter ;0) than bi-yearly visits can offer.
There’s much more to it than that, of course – or perhaps much less. It’s really about “the Third Question”, and that comment about integrity I made to a colleague. Over the years, when asked by visitors why I was still at ISB after 10, 15, and then 20 years, my response became almost a trademark.
“I always ask myself three questions at contract renewal”, I would say. “If the answers to all 3 are “Yes”, then why would I uproot my family, move to yet another country, culture and language, and start all over again to build what I hope would be a great library program?”
the three questions are;
- Do I still love living in Thailand (and who wouldn’t? The combination of 12 month beach weather, a wonderful, accomodating host culture, and an enviable contract & benefits package makes an assignment in Thailand truly a gift that keeps on giving)
- Do I still enjoy my work at the school? (and how could one not? Since 1986 we’ve grown from 1200 to nearly 2000 students, moved to a beautiful campus in the suburbs, and transformed libraries from moribund “bookrooms” to warm, dynamic ”social/work-spaces” featuring an eclectic blend of technology and traditional resources (including teak shelving, and, yes, a few remaining 3-ring binders ;0) )
And finally, the clincher: Question 3…
3. Do I still believe that the school values my contribution to the work we’re doing?
I have always felt valued, respected and affirmed in my professional capacity, and beginning my third decade at ISB felt no different. Recognizing the growing deficiencies in the pre-Internet facility we had designed in the 1980′s, I began submitting library renovation and renewal proposals in 2002. When administrative response was lukewarm, I fired off increasingly strident evidence-rich proposals advocating for a comprehensive review in 2004, 2006 and 2007. In 2oo8, the school convened a faculty committee for a year-long review culminating in a comprehensive inhouse report and proposals for next steps. We concluded the 2008-2009 school year with a site visit by external consultants Doug Johnson and Ann Krembs who reaffirmed many of our conclusions and provided additional strong recommendations. The stage was set, it seemed, for a long-awaited revamp rooted in historical perspective, informed by current best practice and resulting in a renewal of the program and renovation of the physical plant.
The Johnson/Krembs report was filed with ISB in May, 2009. As of November 2010, there is no standing committee analyzing the findings, no public review process discussing next steps, and no mention of the library project in the comprehensive campus review plan rolled out this fall. Instead, following this year’s opening of a new (LEEDS Gold-Standard) Fine Arts Center, there are plans for a new high-tech track, new all-weather artificial turf for the alternate playing field, relocated tennis courts on a newly purchased plot of adjacent land, and a new 50 meter pool on the current tennis court site.
‘Nuff said about Question 3. The bald, unvarnished truth, from where I stand, is that in spite of having once been branded a “technology evangelist” with one foot over the cutting edge and the other firmly rooted in traditional reading and research, my status at ISB has become that of an unofficially tenured “elder-statesman” to be politely humored. I don’t mean to sound maudlin, or bitter (and I feel neither), but my time has passed and it’s time to move on to other things assuming greater significance in my life than a “next-gen” library for ISB.
I have recently moved from “LibraryThing” and “Shelfari” to ”GoodReads”, developing a community of readers exploring the “big themes” of literature. This will be my last “Edging Ahead” rant (as I suppose this could be viewed). Future entries will be my redirected Goodreads reflections on books encountered as a result of that project. I’ll still be “Edging Ahead”, but more in contemplating the philosophical underpinnings to life rather than obsessing over the frustrations of trying to move a library renewal program forward. I will leave that to my successor.
And I’ll blog about the things that have come to really matter to me at “Mai Shangri-La”, my personal blog and sounding board on those issues.
It’s been a ride…